I’m not bragging. I am amazed! I do not know why on Sunday two weeks ago I wanted to eat everything in sight, as I had done for the several months before…yet Monday morning, I got up and was strong enough to say “No!” It must surely be Grace, because there is no other explanation.
Having said all that…I’ll tell you that I’ve turned down all that sugar, ate normal, healthy meals and snacks, and haven’t lost an ounce all week!!!! However, my mental attitude is so much better…just having a plan, I think. My not being out of control halts some anxiety that clouds me continually when I’m on a binge (and my binges are really, truly, fully binges!) I don’t wake up in the morning with the first thoughts of my day full of negatively and self loathing, but rather thoughts of hope and gratefulness. I don’t think I’ve ever faced a December with such positivity.
I know there is a possibility of having days where “No” isn’t a word my body will heed, but today, it is. I’ve been able to say, “No, I am not eating that cookie….that candy…that…whatever!” Even more importantly…I’ve been able to say, “No, I may have just eaten too much dinner, but I will not continue eating for the rest of the night!” That victory alone is a biggie because my mentality has always been off-kilter when it comes to guilt and rationality, and eating normally.
I am now making plans to start the treadmill again on Monday….or even this weekend!
I also slept much better last night, and I hope that’s a start of a new phase of my life.
Sleeping! (big, happy sigh)
I am most thankful.
I am thankful too!! Told you this before, but after a big loss one week, you might have a small or no loss the next week, body is doing re-adjusting or something like that! I think it is great that you are able to put the food aside you are choosing not to eat. Choice is a good word, isn't it (its my buzz word for next year, like this year's was trust, watch for a post about it towards the end of the year)
ReplyDeleteyou go girl! that treadmill is calling your name!
betty