I suppose I’ve known for some time that my biggest problem is me; more directly, my frame of mind. I have nursed negativity about myself since I was preschool age. I don’t claim to know if my food obsession is solely because of my own self image, but I think a big piece of the puzzle.
Part of being On The Road Again, this time, is finding out not so much WHY (if there even is a “why”) but to learn exactly what freedom means. Does my idea of freedom line up with God’s idea of freedom for me? I fully believe in God’s freedom; and I believe, for me, His way is the only way. But obviously, I have much to learn. For the ten-plus years since I gave my heart to Christ, my “stinking thinking” hasn’t changed a whole lot. It’s time for a reevaluation. A revolution. A resolution (not to be confused with goal) to win the raging battle of my thoughts…to get a renewed mind.
Just so that I’m clear in my own mind, I do have a goal of losing weight. That goal, however, is to be a side effect of a real, honest-before-God mind renewal. I resolve (with Christ as my strength) to win the Battle of the Mind, not the Battle
Just as Weight Watchers is a tool for losing weight, I have a few tools for mind renewal, too. I have two books by Joyce Meyer: Battlefield of the Mind (which I have already read, an will reread) and Power Thoughts (I am currently reading.)
If I think about this too hard, I realize that I don’t even know what it means to have a renewed mind…but I am going to find out. God is merciful, with abundant, unending Grace. He is my Anchor, my Rock; he is NOT my tool. His Word is my Sword. I want Him to be the love of my life, not food.
Welcome to my New Year!
I hope yours is peaceful and happy, and RENEWED!
Earlier this year, in my back yard
Lovely photos!
ReplyDeleteI wrote a post very similar to this last year. And I noded along with yours. If we can just put God in His rightful place in our lives, our lives would be so much better.
My theme for this year is to Let go and Let God. That means a lot of things for me, but top of the list is to turn to HIM instead of food when the crisis, emotion, whatever, hits.
That shouldn't be as hard as it is, should it? :}
Happy New Year! We're gonna do this thing!
Deb
love the colorful birds from your backyard! I think renewed is good to focus on in this new year. I know if you search for God and seek him, his word says he will be found and I am sure that includes renewing your mind! I know it will be a great journey and year for you as you pursue this!!
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