What shouldn't be a struggle is certainly a struggle. I shouldn't wake up and my first thoughts be guilt for eating too much the night before, and wanting to eat yet even more. It's not "normal" thinking. Sometimes, like today, when it comes to losing weight, I feel like I'm barely hanging on.
And it can feel very lonely, like I'm in cold, cold water all by myself....
...even though I'm in a busy world with many people who feel just like me.
What it comes down to is just this...
I'm not alone, but I have to fly alone and make my choices
of how I'm going to take on the challenges of the day.
Only I can decide to either toss my goals to the wind
and spend another day on a binge, or make some better decisions,
exhibit some self control, and make hard choices that are good for me.
When my first desire is to eat and eat and eat,
I have to choose better, wiser, healthier...
Even though it feels like a very lofty (impossible) thing to do...
not eat...when all I want to do is put on a feed bag and
eat my way into oblivion.
So in the midst of the chaos of my thoughts, I am making
the decision to begin my day with prayer,
and on my treadmill,
instead of at a fast food restaurant.
I'm going to arm myself with some Psalms, and
even though my mind is screaming, "Let's EAT!"
I'm going to calm myself and my thoughts, and I AM going to
have a good day, with good choices, and know that God
is going to help me, because I have called on Him.
He is my Rock. My Anchor. I can do this, because
I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength.
UPDATE: I just walked a 20 minute mile, down from 22 minutes just last week. It's gonna be a good, good day! (Not because I walked the faster mile, but because I am making good decisions, thank You, Lord.) Now...for some reason...those "hard" choices aren't feeling so hard.
(All pictures taken by me of The Shoals, Alabama)
Hang in there - you can do it :)
ReplyDeleteBecky 01/26/2011
did you take these pictures? they are so very neat! I like how you mixed the pictures with your thoughts; well put together.
ReplyDeleteGood for you for the 20 minute mile!! It is a struggle and you are right, it is a choice. But through Jesus, we can do all things because he is walking right alongside us every step of the way. Thank you for these wise words this morning, I definitely need to hear them.
now onward today in victory in Jesus!
betty
Reading your first comment was scary for me. I was just scrolling down to tell you to HANG IN THERE when I read the anonymous posters comment. It was the same thing I was thinkind AND her name is Becky too. WOW!
ReplyDeleteHang in there.
Becky
Hats off on your committment to become healthier! A 20 minute mile, walking, is a goal my gyn dr., gave me 25 years ago. Having a full time job and family made that a difficult endeavor. 9 hrs plus travel to work, taking kids to ball practice, dance, cheerleading, church activities, ballgames, recitals, etc., left no time for this goal. There was always laundry, housework, homework to review, PTO meetings, church, etc., awaiting any free minute I could find.
ReplyDeleteI am nearing 60 and have multiple forms of arthritis, one artificial knee, another due in a few months. Walking with assistance now. You are young, do not give up this important activity! Exercise, regular exercise and proper diet are the keys to good health and mobility as you age. Your
later years can be filled with whatever your dreams may be if you are physically fit. I'd love to walk a portion of the Appalachian Trail, amble over historic sites, heck just walk the short distance to my folks' without aid. Maybe after the next knee replacement. That's my goal: to be able to physically do the things I could do before arthritis. You certainly have my support and prayers for dietary success and reaching your goal! Hugs!